I AM Present

It is 12:59 AM and my loved ones are asleep. I can't sleep. I am full of energy for some reason so I figured I'd write what's running through my mind.

I was just thinking about a few times when I didn’t want to be present. I often felt misunderstood growing up and that feeling stayed with me as an adult until I understood my calling.

I shied away from every opportunity to be seen or heard even though that was what I wanted. Then later I was hard on myself for making myself feel small. I was telling myself stories to fit a narrative I created.

Fast forward to now.

I feel more present in my body. Present in my thoughts. Present in my journey and present anywhere I choose to show up. I had to start doing things differently because it was just time. Usually, when we are not functioning at our best it is because we are resisting a change that is supposed to happen. I was too easily overwhelmed with feelings that could change in the blink of an eye. I mean, as I write this it seems so simple but I know it's not. I said all of that to say check your feelings at the door. Allow yourself to feel what you would rather feel joy, peace gratitude and take up space. That is all. That's the post.

Good night.