Updated: Apr 6
Is it normal to cry after yoga? I did. It was like an unofficial release ceremony that I didn't know I needed.
That moment on my mat was like a wave of emotions and I was suddenly aware of everything going on in my body and around me all at once. Initially my mind wanted to go all intellect and figure out why and what but my heart said 'This is what we need right now. This is what's happening. It's ok to cry. It's ok to not be ok.'
This month I took some time off to pour into myself a little more. I felt like I needed a reset... Well I've been feeling that way for a while but wasn't honoring my needs because I had goals I wanted to meet. Of course I know better [than neglecting myself] but I didn't do better. I didn't practice what I have been preaching and I wanted to be transparent about it.
I think we get so caught up on appearances and don't want to show when we fall short, need help or are just not functioning at our best. I get it because no one wants to appear weak but then again it's not ok to suffer in silence.
Everyone on this physical plane has challenges. Some are more vocal about where we are and some hide but either way the challenges are there. And it's more about being truthful with ourselves.
Otherwise we can not attract, relate, or build real intimacy if everyone is showing up as who they wish they were instead of who they are.
I'm in a space where I care less about appearances. I am working on areas where I'm not strong yet and I appreciate and want to be supported and surrounded by those who are serious about facing their shadow, healing whatever hurts and not being ashamed of their past or make excuses why they can't do better.
Today was a reminder that yes every moment is not golden and I might break down and cry but as long as I can get up all is well.
So check in with yourself. Check on your strong friend. Be grateful that you can try again and know that you deserve love and care when you're at your best and when you feel like you're falling apart.
And so it is.